DianaGetsRevengel

Tag: writing

  • In which I made honor roll

    I’m a 35-year-old college student. My memory index is kind of warped from trauma, which means sometimes I only remember certain things. I was never a bad student, but I wasn’t exactly a serious one either. I had it in my head that I was going to be a writer, so I never really focused…

  • Angels Dust

    A little secret there a little secret here little secrets everywhere your family legacy is covered up both in blood angels dust, devils dust and rust and drugs a gunshot wound to the head mysterious deaths and you will not rewrite a history that is also mine I know the end Diana, not Diana Gets…

  • Censoring myself

    I feel like I have to censor myself. All of the time. I live in this small city. I always think of it as a small town, but it’s a small city. There’s a population that’s in the double digits. But still, everyone seems to know everyone. And everything about everyone. On top of which,…

  • Weird things I did

    I e-mailed someone I don’t know about family trauma who will probably think I’m crazy for doing so. Sorry in advanced, just trying to figure shit out. I swear.

  • Working

    It’s not like I don’t want to be a good employee. I’d love to be able to come to work, be pleasant, and do my job. But I get there, and I can’t stop thinking about every interaction that I have. Was I nice enough? Should I be nicer? Did I accidentally insult someone without…

  • Turned in my fellowship application

    I turned in my fellowship application. I did the resume, wrote the scripts, and the essay all by myself. I was genuinely pleased because normally, I talk myself out of things. But I ACTUALLY DID IT. I sent it in and everything. If I get in, I would be a screenwriter for Disney. I’ve always…

  • In which I cleaned my room today

    I live in the top floor of an apartment building. It gets hot in the Summer. Right now, I have three little fans going and even with that, I am still sweating most of the time. Ages ago, my Mom got me a portable air conditioning unit for my apartment. Every year, we have to…

  • Job Coach

    I’m working with a job coach. There’s two types of these. There’s job services, which helps you find a job. And job coaches, who help you deal with stressors at work. For me, because of anxiety and weird family stuff, it’s usually social. She went over things she had observed of me at work and…

  • Anxiety and cashiering

    I work as a cashier. The thing of it is, it’s a simple job. I ring up customers and I make chit chat and it’s not that big of a deal. The problem is that I have social anxiety. Which means that I am anxious ALL of the time because cashiering is a social activity.…

  • On survivors

    The thing about being a survivor of abuse is that it never really ends. People will always try and defend the person that did it. They will say that it’s not that big of a deal or that it didn’t happen. Every time someone protects someone who is an abuser, it hurts someone else. Because…