I cried at work today

I cried at work today. Which was not great. I also got short tempered with the person training me.

Here’s the thing though: no one told me that this person was training me. I also wouldn’t have expected them to, based on their experience.

Which was why I was annoyed as hell that I had three twenty-somethings trying to tell me what to do. This shouldn’t annoy me, but I am constantly being underestimated by people.

And told what to do. And everyone thinks they can because they think I’m younger than I am.

I’m thirty-five.

So, having people treat me like a five-year-old when I’ve cashiered for a decade really pissed me off. But here’s the difference: I didn’t go home.

Old me would have. There was enough shit going on that I could have cried and gone home and gave up. But I forced myself to stay. I also need to pick up my meds, which I think was why I got overwhelmed.

Also, it doesn’t help that it was a twenty-something guy training me and NO ONE TOLD ME that’s what he was doing. I also am incredibly uncomfortable around men.

There are some situations where I’m okay, but one on one is definitely not it. Either way, I was happy for myself, because I stayed and I worked through it.

With love,
Diana