Recently, I keep on thinking about failing. I graduate in December, and then there’s all of this family stuff going on. And it’s family stuff that, if it went well, would completely change things for me. But if it goes terribly, I am still stuck exactly where I’m at, with no foreseeable way of getting out.

And I try to sleep but I can’t. I stay up late and I made art. I made some sales at first, and then it dropped off to nothing, and I had no commissions.

I guess it’s okay if I end up just staying where I am and doing the same thing. But I had always hoped to do something more, and I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t get the chance to. I’m not saying I would do anything drastic, but it’s just…

Everything is a complete mess right now.

-Diana