I’ve been procrastinating. I’m writing a script for the Disney Writers Fellowship. It’s something I’ve wanted for a long time and now that I’ll have my degree in December, I’m able to apply for it. However, the thing of it is, I am the kind of person who is used to not having things work out.
Whether because of mental health, family stuff, or financial reasons I usually end up not being able to complete things. This is the first time I am getting close to being somewhere that I want to be. I also realized that there will be a lot of socializing too involved as I read that the program also has some social mixing type things you have to do. I am not great at dealing with people in person.
That’s why I tend to write on my blog more rather than make any other type of content. I can gather my thoughts better when I am writing compared to trying to talk to people.
But it’s also situational. I live in a pretty conservative area, and I think that has made me more scared. There are some things you just don’t talk about here unless you want to end up fighting with someone and I can’t always be angry with everyone all of the time.
Although, that’s usually my default mood anyway.
So, that leads to a lot of me not being myself and being really quiet. I’m hoping that getting into the Writing Fellowship for Disney will mean that I’ll be around people who are more like me and I’ll finally be able to do what I’ve always wanted which is write professionally.
It will also be a full circle moment since my first job was at Disneyland working custodial.
Me back in 2011 when I was part of the Disney College Program.
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